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Name:Rachel
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Sunday, December 11, 2005

My Sorrow.

This post is gonna be long ..

I never felt so hurt in my life...

i seem to be disliked by my very own mother for everything i am..

why did she bore me into this world in the first place?

Today she said that i m ugly and she said that its the truth but none of my friends will tell me...
the truth hurts. i know i am not pretty and i feel that i am ugly.. but these words that came from the person who give u this face, this body pierce thru like a sharpened spear.....

These are not the only things she said to me before..and of course none of those words i heard were from a heated arguement..

From pri sch.. i was compared to neighbours, friends and family on how gd their results are.. and of cos not the studying type.. i could not compete.. i was scolded for being lazy..

even when i started drawing things.. my mother said that my drawings are like ghost.... none of them was gd enuff for her.. i couldnt make her proud of me..

of couse i couldnt make her proud of what i am.. i was a hunchback.. i was a crybaby.. i wasnt mentally strong like many people are... my motion sickness and weak body cause traveling to other countries problematic..

i was a burden..

she dosent like my personality too.. she keeps telling me i am irritating.. and too sensitive..

now.. this time is my looks..

should i be sad? if the value of a person living is how many people will cry for them when they die.i think my value is near null... there are no one really close to me that can pick up the broken pieces of my heart.. even i know my friends are always there for me.. i just feel that way....

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Rachel noted down@
8:06 PM

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